i remember

I remember, that essentially, I started to believe in God because of you. 

When we were little, I would have tears streaming down my face when they would yell.
You would clasp your hands and clench your eyes. 

Then you would look up.

you pitched me three steps

The other day, for the first time in a long time, I want you to know that I actually listened to you. Not that I normally ignore you, but I do. Just every once in a while. Because sometimes, you say things I just can't stand to hear. Like, "stop being so forgiving" and "I know you're not really an optimist, so stop acting so damn happy." 

But this time, I listened. You were pretty convincing, I must say.  You told me to stop worrying. That those panic attacks I  keep having are avoidable. You pitched me three simple steps.
One: Let go. 
Two: The ones who care, will love you regardless of your mistakes.

Three: A hike in the mountains can cure most un-diagnosable mental traumas. 

I wish it were as easy as that. But who am I to argue?

You're the one who has your life together. 

Maybe it's time to take a leaf out of your book.

we must not forget

I think it is most important for us to remember that there is no way

 all hope could be lost.

There are so many people for us to meet, that have not had the

 opportunity to change us.

 So many gestures of kindness we have not recieved.

 So many disguised miracles that we have not yet had the chance to witness.

To say all hope is lost is to say that nothing will change. 

That everything we have now will stay the same.

And to believe that, is to believe that nothing will ever get better. 

To believe that, is to condemn yourself to a life of regret. 

Hope is in the cracks under the door frame. 

Hope is in the green eyed six year old. 

Hope is the belief in something greater than yourself.